Wednesday, September 27, 2017

Cool Melancholy

Its midnight and I’m staring at overcast skies
Pointless to try and get some rest but I can’t close my own eyes
Those heavy clouds that block the moonlight, They cover my cries
Same way this world wants to rewrite my mind with whitewashed lies
To spiritually destroy me, reward me, and give me glory
For my passivity and docility or otherwise they’ll scold me
But servility, it really ain't that far from slavery
Yet  this complacency, frees me from my sensibility

And the its idea that I'm controlled by my oppressing climate
That allows me to be a helpless recluse, depressing and quiet
A calm state of melancholy I call it,
Its something I hate to admit, that I fell in love with when first I saw it
The most sorrowful rains always beckoned my presence
Eversince the merciless sun shone on my first lamet
I knew contentment didn’t belong for too long, It's too easily spent
And that while my life was falling apart, the world moved on

So I eagerly sought out the pouring  rain to play my heart’s somber songs

Thursday, January 22, 2015

Flame of Despair

Let's set ablaze a flame of despair
To scorch and ashen what's beyond our repair
Start a new on these blackened fields
With not a morcel nor resource
And only our persistence to wield

Nothing then will matter now
Nothing then can hold us down
With the past dead and buried
Anything and everything we can remarry
Anything and everything we can remarry

Thursday, May 8, 2014

"Tragedy and Catastrophe I Form into my Masterpiece "

     I'm sixteen and sexy, and I share that with no one, I'm sixteen and sexy but i realize that wont last long, So I take especial care in my social business to ensure that everyone around me will be able to bear witness to the kind of revolutionary greatness that i possess - oh yes, and i refuse - i say I refuse to become some sleazy hoe that undresses becuase some lightskin niggah told me so, i know that I'm meant for more, i know that im meant to be called something significantly more respectable than just a whore, i know that my life has meaning and value just as yours, Our hearts all pump the same blood and in the kinship of man were all capable of the same love, but times have gotten mighty dark and dank, There's bodies in the street - a deathly stank, We've robbed ourselves - indebted at the moral bank, Were pounding nails in our own coffins - just let that sink, in these mournful times people will reach out for a helping hand or they wont, but its your choice whether you aid your people or don't, but I promise you'll only feel remorsee if you haven't, b/c you'll recieve the same treatment and emotionally wreak havoc, and honestly that's where i feel im at,.... right where im at, right where im at.... My father passed away from an enlarged heart, and that harsh reality tore my ten year old world apart, This was my fault, If only I hadnt stolen that chocolate, if only i had done right, "if onlys' were the only thing going through my mind that night, I reached out for a warm hug a reassuring embrace and i gott was a cold shoulder and a pitiful face, That was the moment that my humanity was compromised and malice took its place, And that's not something that time can just earase, It festers and lives in my spirit, permanately engraved into the essence of my being, and that's something evry day more and more i am seeing, not just in me but in my fellow people, our savagery is revealing, our hearts and minds tainted by vengeance and evil, benevolence is ever fleeting, oh this atrocity, this monstrosity is all too real, ... too real, too real...  At the end of the we'll all still have zeal, But no one left to express those feelings for, Because all of our trust in others has been thrown out the door, Since the first stabbing of our first brother in this ceaseless war, Which only persists because forgiveness and maturity does not exist, In a vindictive philosophy, Oh someone please come talk to me, To make this a long story short; There are some beauties in life that will last only the length of a breath and when you allow tragedies to define your attitude toward life and toward people, it makes it that much harder for your existence to be appreciated.

Tuesday, February 25, 2014

Wild Heart

Wild heart
Contained in a rib cage
Restrained by arteries and veins
Forever bound to an earthly body
Destined never to part

Tuesday, January 28, 2014

Bathroom stall, Kitchen floor
These awkward niches I adore
Crackled walk, Grassy stalk
Malicious thoughts forevermore